So frustrated and stressed out...

My dad always has to be in the center of attention and if he isnt he makes himself...

He either pretends to fall over things when he walks or else he constantly talks or is making some kind of noise nonstop...

Its really grating on my nerves...

I just want peace and quiet but I cant even have any because of my dad...

Trying to talk to my dad about anything is useless because he never thinks he does anything wrong and if you try to tell him otherwise he will blame others for his own actions...

I will be so happy when I can be with my Master and out of this place.

I do worry about my mom being alone with my dad because he only cares about himself. When my mom is sick he doesnt help her at all. When my dad is sick excepts everybody to drop everything and do everything for him.

Even when I try uploading my videos to put on my yaoi blog; he unplugs my internet cable from the router because he says that he has something important to do and Im messing him up... All he ever do is pretend to be a lesbian dominatrix on WoW. Even there he likes messing up other people's lives and making other people miserable.

Pictures are worth a thousand words...

Reminds me of when Master is skyping with me while he is at work. Whenever he stands up for whatever reason the camera just happens to center on his belt buckle and I get excited because of what he plans on doing to me with his belt and well because Im a total perv... Love Master's cock sooo much and I know its near....

I would be happy to always be at the eye level of Master's belt

Using logic when making tea...

The way I make my mom's tea is I add the tea first, then the sugar, and lastly the milk.

My logic is that it will taste the best this way. Sugar dissolves better in hot liquids than it does in cold liquids, also the hot tea will mix itself better with the milk if the milk is poured on top it. Hotter molecules travel faster than colder ones...

My mom told me to fix her tea the complete opposite. Add the milk first, then the sugar, and lastly the tea... Its her tea so if she wants it to not taste as good thats her fault

My tea and coffee I just have it black because I dont like adding stuff to it.

My dad....

Master called me on skype when I was in bed. I only had my cell phone with me so I figured I should answer him even though I had no idea how to mute it...

Just my luck, that one of the first things he heard was my dad telling me to bribe my mom to use her money to get us a pizza. My dad just also happened to say that he would give my mom oral sex if she got us pizza...

My dad is the reason why my parents have never meet any of my boyfriends...

He doesnt know how to talk around other people and always ends up saying something stupid and embarrassing

Ode to (aka thank you) Youtube

If it wasnt for a random very boring night a few years ago I would have never found out about yaoi

My first ever experience with yaoi a random youtube video...

Once I saw it I was like I dont know wtf this is but I like it

I have never heard of any animes at that point either


Also thank you for leading me to now my favorite song

I dont necessary like the meaning of the song, I just love the sound of the song

Also all of the boys are yummy + their hip action = nose bleed

Smart females know that size doesnt matter its how they move their hips

Totally gonna perv out right now cause I already am right now...

But everything I have read about Korean men is that they are great lovers.

I trust my Master is great is everything <3

I dont like knives... and butterflies

Because when I was 15 yrs old I was very very stupid and believed my boyfriend at the time that I wasnt pregnant even though my body kept telling me I was...

I was 5 months pregnant when I got the abortion and ever since then I have felt very guilty and depressed for having my baby killed...

Right after I had the abortion I thought that if it would pretty if I cut my wrists, laid on my bed flat on my back and spread my arms out so my blood would make butterfly wings as I died. I had to fight the urge to stick a knife in my belly... I was very stupid then...

I still dont really like knives because Im afraid that I might want to stick it in my belly like back then. If I can I will ask my mom to chop things up for me.

When my Master put to Exacto knife to his tongue it really freaked me out and brought back all of those bad memories.

Even though Im afraid of knives I trust my Master. If he is in to knife play I will let him do it as long as he is the one with the knife and not me...

Oh god I sound so stupid now...

Trusting my life with another person but not trusting myself with my own life

Going on Adventures with Master's stupid bitch...

Spent about 4 hrs walking around total. Went to the library to return some books and get more books, went to Lowes to get a protane trouch so my dad can hopefully get the pilot light for the water heater fixed, and went to the grogery store.

I dont mind walking a lot. I just dont like getting blisters.

Adventure #1.

Went to the library to return some books and get more books, which is about 3ish miles away from my house. Its doable because its mostly flat land, unlike my neighborhood which is named West Lanham Hills (because of the hills. This area used to be a river.). On my way back from the library, I left like I was going to throw up because I walked too much. I dont understand why, sometimes my stomach just hates me.

Adventure #2

Went to Lowes to get a propane torch so my dad can hopefully get the pilot light for the water heater fixed. Im horrible at fixing things. I remember when I was trying to put a some-assembly-required desk... I ended up crying because I stripping every screw before even getting it half way to together. I felt so out of place there especially with my pig tails, jeans, hot pink shoes and grey jeweled tee... I must have looked out of place because three people asked me if I needed help. Only of the three knew where the propane torch was.

Adventure #3

Went to the grocery. Nothing special happened there except that the left arm of my jacket kept falling off so I figured I will just let it stay that way and that I will hopefully start a new trend