밀당

I did a search to see if the ingoring your girlfriend who you love and cherish was a Korean thing or if this guy is just messing with me.

I found out its something called push and pull http://cyjh.hubpages.com/hub/How-to-Date-a-Korean ...

Thanks but I will pass on being treated coldly. If I was able to be with my ex then I would have been with him. You cant push me into the water when Im in the middle of a huge parking lot...

I have read that Korean guys can be cold and all but damn. I think I will pass on the whole omg Im so happy to be dating a Korean guy, they are the best...

All I have to say is that Im glad it happened now instead of when I was with him and had no way to get back home

Must have been with an onion...

100% Me...

Start of a New Chapter...

Photo credit: pixabay

I have decided that even though I'm currently unowned and I'm a free slave that I will continue to write in this journal because there is a lot of insight into myself written here.

A person's life doesn't start over just because a person they cared about left. They continue on and add that to their life experience.

I also like to write; even if its just for myself.

I don't necessary hate my ex because without him I would have never wanted to learn about Korea.

I hope one day I can afford to take the TOESL test and teach English in Korea or Japan

Current mood...

Never thought a kpop song would ever deciribe how I feel but this is 100% me right now

Idk...

I do love my Master but I hate the way he constantly ignores me. Master was wonderful at first because he would message me almost everyday but now he only seems to message me when he wants me to do his English work.

I have made a promise that I wouldnt leave my Master but Im starting to regret making that promise...

All it is doing is making me back into an emotionless cold heated bitch...

I remember my Master saying he was thankful to me but it doesnt show. It almost felt like it was saying thank you to a customer for buying something...

I just feel so alone and unloved...

I dont know what I want to do yet but I know what must be done...

People dont change unless they want to

Understand...

I understand it now when I ask my mom how can could stand to be married to my dad for over 30 years. She thinks of other things because my dad hardly ever pays her any attention. She also reads romance books because she never gets any romance.

I dont need to read things because of my awesome imagation.

I really do feel like I have been married for a long time and Im just taken for granted that I will  always be here.

Yes Master is busy but I need him too. Im like a flower without the sun. I will wilt and die...

Also I remember my Master either saying that he didnt want his property to think or else he wrote that in his ad that  I saw on fetlife...

If he doesnt want me to think he better make sure I dont get bored...

If Im not doing anything I day dream a lot...

Here is a list of some of the things I have thought of...

*While Im doing arrends my Master randomly takles me and has sex with me right where we are
*Sex in the woods
*Sex in the librabry (basically any and every place)
*Master lets me have my own slave boy and we turn him into a cuckhold
*Me and Master move over to South Korea and he gets a few idols to fuck me
*Master working at home and he has me chained under his desk and its my job to keep sucking his dick
*Master making pornos with me
*Master beating my ass till its purple then him checking me to make sure Im ok, then we fuck and he continues to spank me. After he is done he takes care of me and fixes me tea and soup
*And soooo many more things. Too many to list.

I will do anything for my Master as long as it isnt illegal, immoral, and Im the only woman his is with. Im fine if Master wants me to be with other men (as long as Master is there with me and has picked the men himself) but I would feel hurt and betrayed if Master wants to have another female.