Exceptions

Normally I'm 100% against of going back with your ex, because they are your ex for a reason. However; in my case the only reason I broke up with him was because he was too busy with school to pay attention to me.


It was 6 years that I first messaged him and I had no idea how much of a wonderful Master he was that that time. I had to go through hell a few times to realize that he was caring, actually paid attention, knew my mood and how I felt without me saying a word, and if I'm not comfortable with anything he will drop it and never bring it up unless I did.

I'm very glad that I just happened to be bored and wondered how he was doing. Also thank you awesome memory or else I wouldn't have been able to even message him.

My point is if you ever want to get back with an ex list what was good and bad about the relationship. If the bad things aren't too horrible then it might actually be a good thing to get back with your ex.

Side note: Sadists are hard as hell to find and I'm soooo glad that he is a sadist. I have tried being without pain and it just isn't my thing. I need pain to be able to feel anything.

Time Constraints

Being feeling a little stagnate because my Master is busy with getting his degree.

Hopefully things will get more exciting in a few months once I'm living with him.

One thing that has kept me grounded is my Master picking out where and what I eat. The and second time I loved it. The third time, however, I wished that he was there to actually order for me.

Soon little padawan. Soon


Also J-Hope cause my Master said he looks like that when he sleeps.

For Fuck's Sake

Welll... Ummmm...

I'm usually the first to say to never go back to your ex but I just had to make a fucking otome game about teaching English in Seoul... You know because of my obsession with Japanese/Korean men...

Making this game forces me to think about my very first Master because he is the only Korean guy I have been with.

Out of boredom and weakness I admit that I messaged him (hurray for my memory). Just saying that I couldn't stop thinking about him.

Hell he is the reason I started this blog in the first place...

Also this picture sure as hell isn't helping either. Yes its giving me ideas of what to add for my game but otherwise its not good for my health.

Jungkook I love you but why you gotta be sooo damn fine?

There is Never a Good Reason for Not Communicating

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This post will be rather short because it doesn't need too much explanation. Anybody that doesn't seem to understand the concept that not communicating is never good needs to get checked out by a physiologist because they either have an ego complex or an id complex (superior/inferior). We are still people, even in this lifestyle. Nobody is superior or inferior. We still require open and honest communication.

Without communication how can there be trust? Its impossible. Constant doubt and fear takes over with prolonged lack of communication. What if the person(s) is sick, hurt, or worse? There is no way to know with proper communication.

Lack of communication also leads to feelings of abandonment. The simple truth is prolonged lack of communication is equal to abandonment.

With current technology, there is no reason to not hear from somebody unless they are not communicating on purpose.

One of the cores of this lifestyle is communication. Without communication you have nothing.

Why am I still single?

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This was asked to me by a Dom I was talking to on fetlife. He told me that I was very sweet, smart, and fun to be around but he wanted to know why I was single... The answer to this question is the same reason why we stopped talking to each other.

I am monogamous in a world where most people are polygamous. I will not budge on being monogamous. I tried polygamous and it didn't work. I wasn't happy and it drained me too much. I prefer to focus all of my energies on one person. I also don't compete. If my Dom wants another girl he can have her, but I will be gone. Having only one partner is far less stressful and more manageable for me. 

BDSM 101: Play List

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One of the most important things in is BDSM is compatibly. The first part of compatibly is making sure that the types of play both of you are into are similar. Here is a basic play list to help you and your partner understand the types of play that both of you are into. To use this list, just print it and write next to the play type if its a limit, something you have never done but want to try, something you like to do, or something you cant live without. Enjoy and remember to always practice safety.

Age Play Pet Play Medical Play Role Play (Doctor/nurse, teacher/student, etc) Vaginal Fisting Anal Fisting Pegging Face Slapping Hair Pulling Rope Bondage Soft hand/ankle Cuffs Metal hand/ankle Cuffs Gagged Blindfolds Orgasm Control Sensory Play Soft Impact Play (Hand spanking) Hard Impact Play (Floggers, whips, paddles, canes) Bruises Knife Play Swapping fluids Breast Bondage Branding Fire Cupping Needle Play

Golden Showers Scat Oral Sex Anal Sex Sex Group Sex Ass Licking Pony Play Monogamy Polygamy Exhibitionism Public Play Rape Play Tickling Foot Worship Penis Worship Vagina Worship Body Worship Boot Licking Suspension Wax Play Cross Dressing Cell Popping Fire Play Massage (Giving/receiving) Degradation

PMS & Submission

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Periods effect every woman differently; so please ask your submissive how her periods are and if she ever gets PMS. If she does get PMS, ask her how bad it is and what helps her most. Some submissives can function normally but some cant when they are PMSing. This includes periods too.

When a submissive is on having PMS and her period it can effect her mood, energy levels, and her senses (including pain levels). It not that the submissive doesn't want to please her Dom while on her period; its just that some cant, or have a harder time, because of the many side effects of PMS. Give her some lee way and don't punish her for not being her normal submissive self.

I get PMDD more often than PMS. PMDD is basically PMS's bigger badder sister. Everything is worse. I want everything and everyone around me to die. One time; I cursed out a manager at one of my jobs because he wouldn't allow me to go on my break because it was busy. I only got away with it was because the store manager didn't believe the other manager because I'm always sweet and patient. I also get super tired and have horrible cramps; so what I can do is limited. Sometimes the cramps are extreme and it even hurts to just move; all I can do is lie down in bed with a heating pad. I also tend to get depressed and feel very alone. Feeling alone but also wanting to kill anybody that comes within 5 feet of you is a horrible feeling. I have tried different things but I don't like how they make me feel. I just have to learn to cope, which doesn't work most of the time. Only thing that seems to help is music.

Fuck life.