Aigoo...

I have been reading my book about Korea and Im on the history part. What I found the most interesting is that no matter how many invasions, Japan trying to remove anything Korean, and times of poor economy; they kept moving forward and never gave up...

History was my least favorite thing to learn about because it is just a reminder of how stupid and greedy people can get. If you go after something out of your means you will lose. Be happy with what you have and know that the grass is only greener on the other side because it has been painted to look that way...


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This show is torture to watch because of all the yummy foods that Im unable to eat...

I want some eel sooo bad. It looks so good

http://www.viki.com/videos/1028415v-lets-eat-episode-7?origin=autoplay

Worried...

At my Master...

He is having eye pain, headaches, and sensitivity to light...


I have been known to worry a lot...

Even my ex wouldnt tell me if he was sick because he knew that I would be worried to death...

I just hope that whatever is causing him pain isnt serious like a brain tumor...

I would be lost without him...

Even that month without him I was miserable...

Whats Your Fantasy...

I have no idea why but one of the things I have always fantasized about is to have a bunch of Asian guys gang bang me... Its a mix of them being polite and quiet but yet they want to do something the exact opposite...

I have never really wanted this though because gang bangs and rape doesnt really interest me...

However...

One of the first things my Master mentioned to me was he wanted his friends to gang bang me at his graduation. At first I thought; sure  whatevers as long as your there and in control of the situation its fine; but now after drooling over the hot kpop boy bands I defiantly want my own harem of cute Asian men. As long as my Master is the only dominate man there and the other guys are submissive to me and my Master...

My mind does wondrous (and torturous) things and I have already came up with my own little fantasy about it...

Me and Asian 7 guys... All of the men are bi and have been looking for one woman to join their group to fuck, worship, train, and take care off... The group is called the 7 Dragons and each guy likes to do different things. Im basically their fuck toy and am to be used by more than one of them and one goal is to be able to take two of the men in my vagina at once...

I highly doubt I would like it in real life because Im super loyal and when Im with a guy all other men dont exist to me. Hell even with music I only like one group at a time and right now its happens to be BTS...

In fact this music video is what made me come up with the 7 Dragons thingy...

 

Miss My Master...

His eyes have been bothering him a lot and is is super busy with work but I have been missing him like crazy...

Also my doc messed up my birth control and I havent been able to get refill for about a week so my hormones are messed up...

And a lot of things...

Having no job and no money during the holidays really sucks. I remember my first job I had my parents said I saved Christmas because I was able to buy gifts for everybody...

My mom even had to say that when she was 31 she was pregnant with me...

Right now I just feel so down and plan useless...

Eleven Years Difference...

Besides me smiling,the lighting and camera difference. I dont see many changes... Well except I stopped coloring my hair. I do miss having more red in my hair but my skin hated it... 

Also wtf happened to my eye brows in 2003. Maybe it was the make up

Tomorrow...

Tomorrow I turn 31.

I plan on wearing my famous stop traffic red dress to take a pik in it and compare it with the original pic I took in it to see how much I have aged.


The original pic I took when I was about 18, maybe 19.

All I Want For My Birthday...

Is for the temperature to be above freezing...

Doubt it will happen but who knows. A girl can wish cant she?