Miss My Master...

His eyes have been bothering him a lot and is is super busy with work but I have been missing him like crazy...

Also my doc messed up my birth control and I havent been able to get refill for about a week so my hormones are messed up...

And a lot of things...

Having no job and no money during the holidays really sucks. I remember my first job I had my parents said I saved Christmas because I was able to buy gifts for everybody...

My mom even had to say that when she was 31 she was pregnant with me...

Right now I just feel so down and plan useless...

Eleven Years Difference...

Besides me smiling,the lighting and camera difference. I dont see many changes... Well except I stopped coloring my hair. I do miss having more red in my hair but my skin hated it... 

Also wtf happened to my eye brows in 2003. Maybe it was the make up

Tomorrow...

Tomorrow I turn 31.

I plan on wearing my famous stop traffic red dress to take a pik in it and compare it with the original pic I took in it to see how much I have aged.


The original pic I took when I was about 18, maybe 19.

All I Want For My Birthday...

Is for the temperature to be above freezing...

Doubt it will happen but who knows. A girl can wish cant she?

Its Offical...

While cutting potatoes out in the kitchen I noticed steam...

I was like where it the steam coming from because there is no hot water...

I kept looking and I noticed the steam was from me...


Its official Im smoking hot :P

(Repost) Ugh Shopping...

 (This is a repost from earlier because I accidentally deleted it. Luckily it was the cached. This was posted around 11am-ish; before the incident with the random guy harassing your bitch Sir)


Im probably one of the few women that doesnt enjoy shopping very much...

Before I go shopping I have something in mind that I want to buy already and if I cant find it then I dont get anything...

I also do the whole how often will I use this thing... I have talked myself out of buying so many things...

Hope I can find some boots today... Something that is plain and black (maybe has some pink because every since Master said that my collar might be pink, pink has been my color)...

No Ugs. I will not be caught dead in those. I want some nice quality snow boots that are hopefully around $40...

Im the same way with men as I am with shopping...

Yes Im shy but Im not afraid to go up to a man (or send him a message like I did with my Master)...

I only like certain types of men... And so far my Master fits everything: he is funny, kind, smart, nerdy, pays attention, foreign, Asian, and had a sexy voice. Him being taller than me and younger are just bonuses, though I wouldnt mind if he turned out to be shorter than me. I love the whole submitting to somebody that is younger than you...

Never Been So Happy To Be Back Home...

Today was horrible and Im just glad to be back home...

When I was walking to the bus stop this random guy walked up to me and was telling me how fine I was and that he would give me money just to spend some time with him. I repeatedly kept telling him no thank you, not interested and he keep saying he would give me more money and he would pay just for me to dance for him in a hotel. He went up to a thousand dollars and kept telling me stuff... The thing that pissed me off the most and made me almost kick him in the balls and grab my mace was him trying to touch me. I told him to not to touch but he grabbed my ass twice. He was lucky he ran because 5 more seconds he would have had a face full of mace. I was thinking about going back home after that happened because I didnt feel like having to deal with other guys because I was very very angry; but I had things I needed to do. I had to stop myself from crying because I hate when strangers walk up behind me, even more if the get too close to me.

I felt violated...

Im also very tired of guys thinking that offering me money will make me change my mind...

A long while ago I had some big hot shot government guy that wanted to date me...

Our first date was horrible and we had nothing in common but he kept trying to see me. He even offered to buy me a mansion in Ireland. He showed me the bill of sale for the place and all...


Why cant some men seem to understand the word no...

I have never been interested in money because it doesnt last for long. What I want is love and a long lasting connection. Which is why I prefer that my Master doesnt have much money so he understands that I dont want him for his money. I want him for him