Getting Cold Already...

This winter is really going to suck again. Hopefully Im able to get a job soon so I can live with my Master.

Last winter wasnt as bad because my house had at least working hot water but now the hot water heater stopped working. No heat and no hot water is gonna suck. Guess I will have to boil water and wash off fast before I freeze. Doubt I could even wash my hair because its supposed to be the super cold arctic temperatures again and I dont want to get sick.

Would be nice to have money to fix things when they are broken like people normally do

Master Wanted To Talk...

Still waiting on Master to have a talk with me. I hope its good news. I am kinda nervous though, because sometimes it seems like I just cause him more trouble

Results From The Doc's App..

The doc gave me some meds to help my sinuses. For the pmdd she recommended either have her prescribe me some antidepressants or else she could give me a referral to see a gyno to change my birth control pills. I opted for the gyno because I am not depressed and I have heard that sometimes taking antidepressants have bad side effects.

If I dont need to take meds I rather not take them. Thats one of the things I dont like about some doctors. For some doctors you go in with a cold and a stuffy nose and they write you 7 different prescriptions without really trying to cure you. Some doctors just listen to what you say and dont even look at you.

I like my doc though. She is a nice lady and is very thorough with her examinations.

Blood and Faults...

The past few days have been hard on me. I really hate that some times before my period everything irritates me. One thing I got out from this is that I dont ever want to leave my Master. He is in my blood and he is part of me. Every part of me is his.

Even though he isnt prefect there isnt such a thing as a prefect person. People have faults and you have to learn how to deal with them. Also from the different sites and blogs I have read about dating Korean men is that they are workaholics. Even though he may not be there for me all the time I know (at least I hope so) that he wishes that he was there

I swear...

My dad never listens to anything anybody tells him.

Me and my mom keep telling him that him smoking makes us both sick and to please stop but he hasnt. Why did he even randomly take up smoking anyway. He never used to smoke before.

I doubt he remembers the time after my Grandma died from lung cancer because she smoked all her life. We went to a restaurant but all they has was tables in the smoking section so we sat down there. I starting crying saying that I couldnt breathe and that I didnt want to die from the smoke. It got so bad we had to leave the restaurant.

My dad only cares about himself. He has always been like that. He doesnt care if he is making other people's lives miserable; all that matters is that he is happy.

I honestly dont see how my mom can stay married to him because I cant stand to be around him.

Made In Korea...

I swear the most stupid things make me happy.

I have been feeling pretty shitting and I just happened to see that the cup I was drinking from was made in Korea...

My Master is from Korea too... It made me smile and feel happy

Stay Calm...

Getting annoyed that Master is ignored me. He has been ignoring me for a while as a matter of fact. He didnt say anything when I sent him my project for him.

I have to do my best to not message him in skype and tell him that he is a shitty Master.

I know this anger is just my PMDD.

I just want to feel normal again