Know I Shouldnt...

But I will...

This is my journal and Im free to write whatever I want so I will write this...

If I have to demand for sex from my Master then I will not be happy.

I have a very high sex drive. Even with my ex I had to jump on top on him at least twice a week because I needed sex.

My Master better handle my needs better or else I will not be happy.

If he doesnt give me what I need than I will take care of it myself.

I know some of this anger is from my PMDD but some of this is truth; which is why Im writing this post.

Today...

Today I just want to crawl into a deep dark cave, curl up into a ball, scream as loud as I can and cry my eyes out and never come out of the cave.

Words Associations...

I realized something...

Me getting depressed, worried, and even hornier than normal can only mean one thing...

My period will be starting soon...

I thought to myself:

Warning...

Warning...

Igeon overdose...

My PMDD will probably be acting up because Im not my usually happy and positive person. Yes these pills do help to a point but its not completely gone...


Music always calms me down and since this has warning, warning as the first words I figured this song would be the best and yes it is <3

(I would like to thank my Master for being Korean or else I would have never found out about kpop)

Past Experiences...

Here I am sitting at my computer at 4:23 am because Im too horny to sleep...

When me and my Master first met he would use me to cum at the minimum once a week but now its been a while since he used me to cum...

Usually that means one of two things: either the guy is no longer interested or else the guy has somebody else he is having sex with...

I would rather no think about either because I really love and trust him alot...

*Note for Master:  Your property never masturbates herself Sir because she doesnt enjoy it Sir. She loves being told how to do it and when to come Sir


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I am sick and tired of putting in tons of applications all over and never getting even a call back. This will be the 5th time I have in an application for Walmart and the 3rd time for McDonald's. Both of these places I would never normally work because Walmart is a horrible place to work and McDonald's makes gross food that makes me puke any time I eat it. But I will endure working there for the shake of getting money so I can move.

Its like ever since I turned 30 nobody wants to hire me anymore

Finally Something Good...

After all this bad luck with not getting a job and other things something good finally happened...

A few days ago the manager for the Radio Shack next door came over and was talking to my mom about him wanting to pay for a new fence for us.

See we are right next to their parking lot and our fence was in a very bad shape because we havent had the money to fix it.

Its so great to have a company that wants to help the neighborhood around them.

Thank you Mr. Radio Shack manager. Well Radio Shack in general

Scared To Walk Alone...

I was walking home on my way to the library and this guy kept following me. I knew it was the same guy because his car stood out. It was a red car with black racer stripes and a black number 3 painted on the door.

He kept driving past me and waiting at the drive way I was going to walk past.

The 3rd time I noticed him doing this I was mad and scared. He yelled out to me that he just liked watching me walk...

I would be happy if my Master wanted me to lock my in a cage and keep me there for the rest of my life. As long as he took care of me, I had room to move around, was able to talk to my family, and had a computer so I wouldnt get bored.

Two Things That Irritate Me..

One thing that irritates me is when people say things like its their 3 month anniversary... 

An anniversary is yearly (only happens once a year, or every 365/6 days) celebration...


The second thing is when people say liberry not library... 

There is an A between the two R's that are pronounced separately....



Even my Master can stay library correctly and English isnt even his first language <3...