Today...

Today I just want to crawl into a deep dark cave, curl up into a ball, scream as loud as I can and cry my eyes out and never come out of the cave.

Words Associations...

I realized something...

Me getting depressed, worried, and even hornier than normal can only mean one thing...

My period will be starting soon...

I thought to myself:

Warning...

Warning...

Igeon overdose...

My PMDD will probably be acting up because Im not my usually happy and positive person. Yes these pills do help to a point but its not completely gone...


Music always calms me down and since this has warning, warning as the first words I figured this song would be the best and yes it is <3

(I would like to thank my Master for being Korean or else I would have never found out about kpop)

Past Experiences...

Here I am sitting at my computer at 4:23 am because Im too horny to sleep...

When me and my Master first met he would use me to cum at the minimum once a week but now its been a while since he used me to cum...

Usually that means one of two things: either the guy is no longer interested or else the guy has somebody else he is having sex with...

I would rather no think about either because I really love and trust him alot...

*Note for Master:  Your property never masturbates herself Sir because she doesnt enjoy it Sir. She loves being told how to do it and when to come Sir


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I am sick and tired of putting in tons of applications all over and never getting even a call back. This will be the 5th time I have in an application for Walmart and the 3rd time for McDonald's. Both of these places I would never normally work because Walmart is a horrible place to work and McDonald's makes gross food that makes me puke any time I eat it. But I will endure working there for the shake of getting money so I can move.

Its like ever since I turned 30 nobody wants to hire me anymore

Finally Something Good...

After all this bad luck with not getting a job and other things something good finally happened...

A few days ago the manager for the Radio Shack next door came over and was talking to my mom about him wanting to pay for a new fence for us.

See we are right next to their parking lot and our fence was in a very bad shape because we havent had the money to fix it.

Its so great to have a company that wants to help the neighborhood around them.

Thank you Mr. Radio Shack manager. Well Radio Shack in general

Scared To Walk Alone...

I was walking home on my way to the library and this guy kept following me. I knew it was the same guy because his car stood out. It was a red car with black racer stripes and a black number 3 painted on the door.

He kept driving past me and waiting at the drive way I was going to walk past.

The 3rd time I noticed him doing this I was mad and scared. He yelled out to me that he just liked watching me walk...

I would be happy if my Master wanted me to lock my in a cage and keep me there for the rest of my life. As long as he took care of me, I had room to move around, was able to talk to my family, and had a computer so I wouldnt get bored.

Two Things That Irritate Me..

One thing that irritates me is when people say things like its their 3 month anniversary... 

An anniversary is yearly (only happens once a year, or every 365/6 days) celebration...


The second thing is when people say liberry not library... 

There is an A between the two R's that are pronounced separately....



Even my Master can stay library correctly and English isnt even his first language <3...

Temple...

When I was waling to the grocery store to get some food and my mom's meds some guy riding a bike told me that, "damn you are beautiful" when he went past me.  At least he keeping going, even though he did slow down to say that.

My motto has always been that my body is a temple and only one select and extremely privileged person may worship and defile me...

I found him <3

Just hope he is ok. I miss talking to him on a normal basis :(

(Now I have gone and made myself cry again because I miss my Master)