Pushing limits and Melting

Whelp ever since I found out the library has mangas I have been reading all of the ones I love. Finished Black Butler a few days ago and now Im on Hellsing. Which I just finished reading all 10 books in about a span of two days.

Also got XxxHolic, which I never heard of but happened to see in the library and the covers looked pretty. Plus its about ghosts and stuff. Though I may have gotten too many... ie all that the library had.

Also picked up the Marquis de Sade book I requested. Love his works and would have recommended them to my Master but Im not sure if he is up to that level of reading in English yet

(If Master ever happens to read this here is info about de Sade http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marquis_de_Sade)

I got a total of 25 books and my arms are still store from carrying them to the library back to my house.

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Shameless pic time aka hope Master doesnt get jeoulous

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Omg as soon I this pic on my fb news feeds I was like that looks like my Master (just have shorter spiky hair and add glasses)

Just something about the way he is standing and his look makes me want to drop on my knees and kiss his feet

Frustrated...

Whelp I send my Master an email kinda showing him my project Im working on for our anniversary. In the email I asked him if he would like it as a poem or more like an essay. Well he didnt answer me back like he normally does so I figured I should ask him if read the email yet...

All he replied back was thanks for the email hun...

That made me pissed and made me even wonder if he even read the email...

Im so frustrated right now...

I crave and need his direction...



Also, yes I do like it when my Master calls me hun I like it better when he calls me his bitch

Dissociation...

I noticed that while I was running errands today I felt like I wasnt really there.

I have felt dissociation before but usually it only happens when Im very sick and are on lots of meds or if Im super tired.

I kinda feel like Im on the verge of sub drop but not exactly that.

I feel more like Im not in my own body than anything else.

I miss my Master and I hope he is ok

Feelings...

Master hasnt been happy so I have been feeling down too.

We truly are one. If one is sad so is the other.

Happiness can only be reached together.

Project...

Working on a project for Master. Hopes he enjoys it once its finished. Also hope his mom is ok. Im scared to ask him because I dont want him to hurt anymore than he already is. Also never had to deal with a sick parent and possibly losing the parent.

I really hope his mom is ok but Im scared that she isnt and it makes me cry a lot. I want to help him but I dont know how to

Worried for my Master

I have been praying and hoping that my Master's mom would get better but as the days pasts and her being in the hospital longer. I have had a bad feeling and been worrying about Master and his mom more and more.

I have never liked hospitals because most of the time people end up dying there.

My Master told me thank you today after I found out it was Chuseok over in  Korea so I sent him an email wishing him a  Happy Chuseok.

I have been worrying about Master and his mom a lot. To point that I have noticed that when I brush my hair, there is more hair than normal in my brush.

I just want to be with my Master forever and make his life happy and easier for him

It Hurts S Much...

Who would ever think that stumbling and hitting your breast on the edge of a dresser would hurt so freaking much...

Im dying in pain. It feels like I need an ice pack for my boobies it hurts so much...

Dont get it though cause all breasts really are is fat and mammary glands...

Luckily I didnt hit my Master's nipple piercing because Im so afraid of messing them up