Dissociation...

I noticed that while I was running errands today I felt like I wasnt really there.

I have felt dissociation before but usually it only happens when Im very sick and are on lots of meds or if Im super tired.

I kinda feel like Im on the verge of sub drop but not exactly that.

I feel more like Im not in my own body than anything else.

I miss my Master and I hope he is ok

Feelings...

Master hasnt been happy so I have been feeling down too.

We truly are one. If one is sad so is the other.

Happiness can only be reached together.

Project...

Working on a project for Master. Hopes he enjoys it once its finished. Also hope his mom is ok. Im scared to ask him because I dont want him to hurt anymore than he already is. Also never had to deal with a sick parent and possibly losing the parent.

I really hope his mom is ok but Im scared that she isnt and it makes me cry a lot. I want to help him but I dont know how to

Worried for my Master

I have been praying and hoping that my Master's mom would get better but as the days pasts and her being in the hospital longer. I have had a bad feeling and been worrying about Master and his mom more and more.

I have never liked hospitals because most of the time people end up dying there.

My Master told me thank you today after I found out it was Chuseok over in  Korea so I sent him an email wishing him a  Happy Chuseok.

I have been worrying about Master and his mom a lot. To point that I have noticed that when I brush my hair, there is more hair than normal in my brush.

I just want to be with my Master forever and make his life happy and easier for him

It Hurts S Much...

Who would ever think that stumbling and hitting your breast on the edge of a dresser would hurt so freaking much...

Im dying in pain. It feels like I need an ice pack for my boobies it hurts so much...

Dont get it though cause all breasts really are is fat and mammary glands...

Luckily I didnt hit my Master's nipple piercing because Im so afraid of messing them up

Scared, Uneasy, and Nervous...

I dont like being alone in a room with my dad...

He makes me feel scared, uneasy, and nervous...

You know the whole thing about him telling me that he can still kill me if he wanted to...

Wish my mom was awake...

Or else I was with my Master <3

Low Vitamin D Again...

Whelp my doc called me about my physical and I have low vitamin D again...

White person with red hair problems...

Hope Master's mom is doing better. Still worried and praying for her to be well. It must be hard for him. I wish there was something I could do for him



Also if Top had shorter black spiky hair and glasses that would be my <3

Though my Master's voice is more deep and sexy. Just hearing his voice makes me float