Snowballing...

Its been over a week since my mom called AT&T to fix our phone and its still out...

All of the minutes are used up on my cell phone so even if somebody was trying to call me for a job interview I wont know...

What is it bad things keep happening to me?

I just want to be with my Master but things keep stopping me...

I would really love it if he would rescue me but that only happens in fairy tails..

I will keep trying though because my Master doesnt want me to be weak. Im just at the point where Im fed up of not being with him...

The ongoing issues with my dad is just making me want to leave here even more...

Why cant anything good ever happen?

Crying...

My dad is getting on my nerves so much that Im crying...

I was going to the library to get some books for my mom and was gonna stop at the grocery store to get some milk because we are out of milk and only have $5 left. Well he was like get a small thing of milk and get him a $1 hamburger. I told him he doesnt need a hamburger and with hardly having any money we cant get what we dont need.

Well he took the bank card and said he was gonna get the milk. He went to McDonanlds and only got the smallest carton of milk from the grocery store which will hardly last two days.

Trying to talk to my dad is useless because he thinks he never does anything wrong.

I am so tried of having to deal with him Im not even sure what else to say...


I just hope my Master isnt like this

Its over...

My blood work that is :P

I have been known to pass out if I dont eat food for long periods so I was kinda working about fasting in order to have my blood work done for my physical.

Also my motion sickness seems to get worse if I travel on an empty stomach.

I was so glad neither of those happened. Though I do feel a little weak.

Im just glad its over.

I had to close my eyes because watching the nurse taking my blood was starting to make me feel sick.

Think I will take a nap now.

I want to email my Master about this because I love telling him everything but sometimes I feel like I am bothering him. He never complained about it though so I guess Im not bothering him

Happiness Overload...

Even though today is my mom's colonoscopy and my physical I feel very very happy almost to the point of giggling. I am also smiling  a lot today. Nothing as really changed I just feel extremely good.

Emailed my Master this morning to hopefully share some of my happiness while I was waiting for my doctor's appointment and he said he is also having a good morning. <3

Even though I have going to the doctor's and having a pamp smear it has not brought me down one bit.

I just dont know what this is I have never felt this happy before in my life. Maybe this means something good will happen

Rejected...

By dailymotion....

Gah people have told me to upload my yaoi videos on dailymotion because its better than youtube but its rejecting my videos also...

I took me over a week for part 2 to upload without any errors...

Gotta keep trying it again...


Hope my Master wont hate me for saying this because I have read that because of the Japanese takeover of South Korea; and Japan trying to remove everything Korean, that many Koreans hate the Japanese. I totally understand that...

But I wish that the rest of the world was as understanding as Japan is. They allow extremely graphic scenes and images in anime and manga because they know its fictional and that you shouldnt really do that. America however, is all like "oh my kid killed people because he learned about it in video games"...  Really? So by using that train of thought that means that if I play Surgeon Simulator then I can preform that open brain surgery on you with no problems...

Cant foget about nipple torture...

Found this and it made me think of Master

Though for his version nipple torture would have to be added <3

Becoming Ugh...

Blonde...

Why did it have to be blonde...

The same hair color as most other women...

I dont want to be like other people...

I love my reddish hair and being unique...

But if Master wants it he gets it....

I wont be happy about it and my hair will look horrible when it grows out but whatever...

I remember when I was in my dying hair every color phase and blonde was the worst looking color on me...

Hope it makes him happy