Its over...

My blood work that is :P

I have been known to pass out if I dont eat food for long periods so I was kinda working about fasting in order to have my blood work done for my physical.

Also my motion sickness seems to get worse if I travel on an empty stomach.

I was so glad neither of those happened. Though I do feel a little weak.

Im just glad its over.

I had to close my eyes because watching the nurse taking my blood was starting to make me feel sick.

Think I will take a nap now.

I want to email my Master about this because I love telling him everything but sometimes I feel like I am bothering him. He never complained about it though so I guess Im not bothering him

Happiness Overload...

Even though today is my mom's colonoscopy and my physical I feel very very happy almost to the point of giggling. I am also smiling  a lot today. Nothing as really changed I just feel extremely good.

Emailed my Master this morning to hopefully share some of my happiness while I was waiting for my doctor's appointment and he said he is also having a good morning. <3

Even though I have going to the doctor's and having a pamp smear it has not brought me down one bit.

I just dont know what this is I have never felt this happy before in my life. Maybe this means something good will happen

Rejected...

By dailymotion....

Gah people have told me to upload my yaoi videos on dailymotion because its better than youtube but its rejecting my videos also...

I took me over a week for part 2 to upload without any errors...

Gotta keep trying it again...


Hope my Master wont hate me for saying this because I have read that because of the Japanese takeover of South Korea; and Japan trying to remove everything Korean, that many Koreans hate the Japanese. I totally understand that...

But I wish that the rest of the world was as understanding as Japan is. They allow extremely graphic scenes and images in anime and manga because they know its fictional and that you shouldnt really do that. America however, is all like "oh my kid killed people because he learned about it in video games"...  Really? So by using that train of thought that means that if I play Surgeon Simulator then I can preform that open brain surgery on you with no problems...

Cant foget about nipple torture...

Found this and it made me think of Master

Though for his version nipple torture would have to be added <3

Becoming Ugh...

Blonde...

Why did it have to be blonde...

The same hair color as most other women...

I dont want to be like other people...

I love my reddish hair and being unique...

But if Master wants it he gets it....

I wont be happy about it and my hair will look horrible when it grows out but whatever...

I remember when I was in my dying hair every color phase and blonde was the worst looking color on me...

Hope it makes him happy

Excitement and Questions...

I have been over excited and happy over me and my Master upcoming anniversary. So much so I have been smiling all the time.

Though there is still a lot of questions that I would like to have answered. Like what is excepted of me when Im with my Master and if I will be his only slave. I do remember him saying that if I had a sister I would teach her how to serve him...

The only thing that want me to leave my Master is not being his only slave. He has seen my jealous streak. Even if Im alpha sub I would not be happy.

I am not comfortable with having any type of authority at all and I will not be happy if I am not the only one for my Master. I should have asked this question when he brought it up but I think the time has passed. Its just whenever he talks I start floating off into sub space and forget everything...

Our Anniversary...

Since I no longer have my fetlife account I dont have the exact day when I agreed to by my Master's slave but I think its around September 20th.

With him I have never been happier in my life. I finally feel like Im in my true place and like I belong.

Though I do long for the day when I can be in physical presence. So I can feel his ownership and his love.