Excitement and Questions...

I have been over excited and happy over me and my Master upcoming anniversary. So much so I have been smiling all the time.

Though there is still a lot of questions that I would like to have answered. Like what is excepted of me when Im with my Master and if I will be his only slave. I do remember him saying that if I had a sister I would teach her how to serve him...

The only thing that want me to leave my Master is not being his only slave. He has seen my jealous streak. Even if Im alpha sub I would not be happy.

I am not comfortable with having any type of authority at all and I will not be happy if I am not the only one for my Master. I should have asked this question when he brought it up but I think the time has passed. Its just whenever he talks I start floating off into sub space and forget everything...

Our Anniversary...

Since I no longer have my fetlife account I dont have the exact day when I agreed to by my Master's slave but I think its around September 20th.

With him I have never been happier in my life. I finally feel like Im in my true place and like I belong.

Though I do long for the day when I can be in physical presence. So I can feel his ownership and his love.

Trust My Dad....

Im worried about being homeless and my mom told me to trust my dad that we wont become homeless...

Every time I have trusted my dad to do something he always let me down and never did it...

In fact he said himself why should he have to worry about the house when he is going to die soon...

First off, the doctor never told him he has so long to live. There is nothing wrong with him except he is lazy and hates doing work. I dont even think he cares if his family becomes homeless because he doesnt want to have to do anything about it. He will just let it happen because he is too lazy...

I hate lazy people...

I dont want to become homeless because Im scared I will lose my Master. He has been so wonderful to me

Gimme plox...

I miss having animals so much.

Kinda surprised my Master got him a cat though...

From what I have been learning about Korea and Korean; pets arent as common as over here though they slowly are becoming a thing...

Though my Master is different so I shouldnt compare him to your average Korean. He is the best person ever <3

Like the saying goes you can tell a lot about a person by how they treat animals...

Him getting this kitten just make me love him more <3

So glad him and Mochi (?) are getting along so well <3

Learing So Much

Thanks to the small group I am in on facebook I learned that my separation anxiety and feeling abandoned was really sub drop...

All I knew is that I missed my Master a lot and I felt alone like he left me. it was horrible. now that I understand it I can control it more


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Im learning Korean <3

I have two apps on my phone but I feel kinda silly talking to my phone. Also I seem to talk quiet so my phone doesnt pick up everything I say

Watching videos seem to help me more though...

Like with learning Japanese viva playing visual novels and watching Black Butler & Hellsing I more of an audio learning than visual learner

Also Korean is really a cute place <3

I would not mind living there

Never knew why...

I thought maybe it was my PMS that would make me super emotional and depressed and feeling like I was alone and abandoned by my Master but I found out that separation anxiety is part of and can cause sub drop...

This actually make more since than think it was my PMS...

I am not saying that sub drop is any less worse it just makes me realize I much I really need and miss my Master


*unrelated picture but I just happened to see it and I love it plus its my favorite color red*

Fav porn to watch...

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