Im not even sure what I want to write here but I need some kinda of stress release...
Running as never worked to release stress because I just tend to focus on it more...
My Master wont help me for whatever reason...
I have been crying so much from all this shit I gotta put with with my family my stomach like its in knots and Im gonna puke any second and it feels like Im getting a fever. Not to mention my nose is rubbed raw from blowing it so much...
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Wednesday, July 23, 2014
Be driven crazy...
By my father...
All of a sudden my dad has been smoking cigars and no matter how many times me and my mom tells him to stop smoking because it makes us sick, he wont stop. Its like he wants to make me and mom miserable on purpose...
He also knows we barely have enough money each month but he still have to spend $30+ dollars so he can have his cigars...
I knew I should have ran away a few years ago when I couldnt stand living here anymore. My parents begged me to stay telling me that it would be better but it has only gotten worse
Believe me if I had the money I would be in LA with my Master
All of a sudden my dad has been smoking cigars and no matter how many times me and my mom tells him to stop smoking because it makes us sick, he wont stop. Its like he wants to make me and mom miserable on purpose...
He also knows we barely have enough money each month but he still have to spend $30+ dollars so he can have his cigars...
I knew I should have ran away a few years ago when I couldnt stand living here anymore. My parents begged me to stay telling me that it would be better but it has only gotten worse
Believe me if I had the money I would be in LA with my Master
RE: Last Night's Dream...
Last night I has the most wonderful and strange dream ever...
It was about my Master giving me a rimjob...
I have never had a rimjob before and was a little embarrassed by it but my Master loves my ass so much that he didnt care if I was embarrassed by it. He took me and pushed me down my my stomach and had my ass up and was licking all around my ass hole...
It was the most wonderful feeling ever and I kept cumming until he stopped...
Damn even writing this is making my pussy wet...
Never had a rimjob ever anyway but if my Master wants it he gets it <3
It was about my Master giving me a rimjob...
I have never had a rimjob before and was a little embarrassed by it but my Master loves my ass so much that he didnt care if I was embarrassed by it. He took me and pushed me down my my stomach and had my ass up and was licking all around my ass hole...
It was the most wonderful feeling ever and I kept cumming until he stopped...
Damn even writing this is making my pussy wet...
Never had a rimjob ever anyway but if my Master wants it he gets it <3
Music
I tend to be very picky with almost everything but with music I only listen to curtain things
Here is what I like...
Well kpop wise anyway...
Here is what I like...
Well kpop wise anyway...
Sunday, July 20, 2014
Quiet please...
One thing I never been able to get is peace and quiet. My mom is always blaring the tv and my dad is always making mindless noises. Its really stressing me out to the point that Im crying.
So far the only moments I have had where everything is quiet is when late at night my Master skypes with me.
Another thing I dont enjoy is people just talking for the sake of talking.They form words with their mouth but the words have no meaning or context. Unless if you are sharing or trying to gain information then please be quiet. I have no interest in hearing about how short you cut your hair or other meaningless things like that.
That goes for songs too. Most modern songs are just saying the same words over and over again, trying to make a rhyme that makes since but it just ends up sounding like a third grader wrote it. This is why I refuse to leave my house without my headphones and my Yuya. I will not taint myself with meaningless music.
Though, Master can tell me anything he wants to because everything he says is important. <3
So far the only moments I have had where everything is quiet is when late at night my Master skypes with me.
Another thing I dont enjoy is people just talking for the sake of talking.They form words with their mouth but the words have no meaning or context. Unless if you are sharing or trying to gain information then please be quiet. I have no interest in hearing about how short you cut your hair or other meaningless things like that.
That goes for songs too. Most modern songs are just saying the same words over and over again, trying to make a rhyme that makes since but it just ends up sounding like a third grader wrote it. This is why I refuse to leave my house without my headphones and my Yuya. I will not taint myself with meaningless music.
Though, Master can tell me anything he wants to because everything he says is important. <3
The Story of The Master & his slave
I never really told anybody the story about us but Im not sure how else to show how wonderful he is.... (its kinda long)
We met on fetlife when he posted an add looking for somebody to be his property. I responded to it and he didnt expect me to submit to him or say Im his or anything; he wanted to know about me first. After a while of chatting he let me pick what I would call him; either Sir or Master. I went with Sir because it seemed more fitting seeing as he hasnt collared me but once he does collar me I will call him Master. He was perfectly fine with that.
A few months later; I was PMSing and I got very angry at him for something silly he posted on fetlife. I dont remember the exact words but I called him a lair and said everything he was telling me is bullshit.. He was very surprised I was that mad over something that was nothing and he broke it off with me. I realized my error after the fact and apologized to him telling him I was wrong but I didnt hear anything back from him in over 2 weeks so I figured he didnt want me anymore.
I never fully got over him even though I was talking to a new Dom (the Dom knew this). I was with this new Dom for about a month when my (current) Master emailed me asking if I wanted another chance. I was so happy to hear from him and I wanted to say yes but I figured that it wouldnt be fair to this Dom I was talking to. So I asked the Dom what to do and he said just to reply with no. I asked if he wanted me to delete the email and he also said no.Then it was like fate stepped in; after a failed panty stuffed session that ended with me injured. I thought the Dom left me because I didnt hear from that Dom until 6 days later. I though I disappointed him because I couldnt do the task he wanted me to do. I checked my email everyday to see if the Dom had sent me an email saying he had to travel for work . Everyday the email from my Master was sitting there and after six days I could no longer take it. I hesitantly emailed my Master back telling him that yes I did want him back and I only said no because I was talking to another Dom and the other Dom told me to say no. I told my Master the reason I was talking to another Dom was because I thought he no longer wanted me.
My Master excepted me back but he said he would be more harsh on me and I could no longer use fetlife; which I was fine with. I remember back in late December he told me that I might not hear from him for a week because he had to get eye surgery but we chatted for hours everyday. That was when he brought up about me getting my nipples pierced for him. I asked him how I would do that and he told me to think about it. All I had to think about was a needle and blood. I could feel a panic attack starting. I told my Master about my panic attack and I asked him if it was ok if I made myself some tea. He said sure go ahead make tea and that if I was unable to get my nipple pierced thats fine. He just thought it would be a good idea for me to get. After that he never brought up nipple piercing again.
It was in February when I was thinking of something special I could do for Valentine's Day for him to show to my devotion and how happy I was for him taking me back. I remembered him wanting me to get the nipple piercings. I looked up as much info as I could about them because I wanted them to be prefect for him. A few days before Valentine's Day I randomly asked him which nipple he wanted pierced. He was surprised and proud of me that I was getting them done. The first few days where hard because of the bleeding but he helped me as much as he could. Now I keep looking for a job so I can have the money so I can move in with him.
I am so happy to be his.
We met on fetlife when he posted an add looking for somebody to be his property. I responded to it and he didnt expect me to submit to him or say Im his or anything; he wanted to know about me first. After a while of chatting he let me pick what I would call him; either Sir or Master. I went with Sir because it seemed more fitting seeing as he hasnt collared me but once he does collar me I will call him Master. He was perfectly fine with that.
A few months later; I was PMSing and I got very angry at him for something silly he posted on fetlife. I dont remember the exact words but I called him a lair and said everything he was telling me is bullshit.. He was very surprised I was that mad over something that was nothing and he broke it off with me. I realized my error after the fact and apologized to him telling him I was wrong but I didnt hear anything back from him in over 2 weeks so I figured he didnt want me anymore.
I never fully got over him even though I was talking to a new Dom (the Dom knew this). I was with this new Dom for about a month when my (current) Master emailed me asking if I wanted another chance. I was so happy to hear from him and I wanted to say yes but I figured that it wouldnt be fair to this Dom I was talking to. So I asked the Dom what to do and he said just to reply with no. I asked if he wanted me to delete the email and he also said no.Then it was like fate stepped in; after a failed panty stuffed session that ended with me injured. I thought the Dom left me because I didnt hear from that Dom until 6 days later. I though I disappointed him because I couldnt do the task he wanted me to do. I checked my email everyday to see if the Dom had sent me an email saying he had to travel for work . Everyday the email from my Master was sitting there and after six days I could no longer take it. I hesitantly emailed my Master back telling him that yes I did want him back and I only said no because I was talking to another Dom and the other Dom told me to say no. I told my Master the reason I was talking to another Dom was because I thought he no longer wanted me.
My Master excepted me back but he said he would be more harsh on me and I could no longer use fetlife; which I was fine with. I remember back in late December he told me that I might not hear from him for a week because he had to get eye surgery but we chatted for hours everyday. That was when he brought up about me getting my nipples pierced for him. I asked him how I would do that and he told me to think about it. All I had to think about was a needle and blood. I could feel a panic attack starting. I told my Master about my panic attack and I asked him if it was ok if I made myself some tea. He said sure go ahead make tea and that if I was unable to get my nipple pierced thats fine. He just thought it would be a good idea for me to get. After that he never brought up nipple piercing again.
It was in February when I was thinking of something special I could do for Valentine's Day for him to show to my devotion and how happy I was for him taking me back. I remembered him wanting me to get the nipple piercings. I looked up as much info as I could about them because I wanted them to be prefect for him. A few days before Valentine's Day I randomly asked him which nipple he wanted pierced. He was surprised and proud of me that I was getting them done. The first few days where hard because of the bleeding but he helped me as much as he could. Now I keep looking for a job so I can have the money so I can move in with him.
I am so happy to be his.
Saturday, July 19, 2014
Happy slave *squeeee*
Finally had a well needed session with my Master. Happy slave now
Btw back to uploading all my yaoi lps but this time on dailymotion. People have told me that they wont take my videos down. Also running my yaoi blog again. Hopes my Master can help with translating with Hadaka Shitsuji site because my translator button wont work for that site :(
The site that in Japanese and I cant understand a word of it ~ http://madalabo.com/
My yaoi blog ~ http://dustyplayblgames.blogspot.com/
To explain the name I picked, Dusty Manson, its the name of my first dog (Dusty) and my fav overall entertainer ( Marilyn Manson)
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Side note: Even though I only listen to k-pop and Yuya Matsushita doesnt mean I understand much of what they are saying. Im able to pick up a few words but most of the time I just stare at the guys and drool :P
Btw back to uploading all my yaoi lps but this time on dailymotion. People have told me that they wont take my videos down. Also running my yaoi blog again. Hopes my Master can help with translating with Hadaka Shitsuji site because my translator button wont work for that site :(
The site that in Japanese and I cant understand a word of it ~ http://madalabo.com/
My yaoi blog ~ http://dustyplayblgames.blogspot.com/
To explain the name I picked, Dusty Manson, its the name of my first dog (Dusty) and my fav overall entertainer ( Marilyn Manson)
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Side note: Even though I only listen to k-pop and Yuya Matsushita doesnt mean I understand much of what they are saying. Im able to pick up a few words but most of the time I just stare at the guys and drool :P
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