Loyalty, laziness, or just contentment?

My Master recently thanked me for being loyal and it just hasn't been sitting right with me.

My Master is currently too busy with getting his degree to pay me any attention and I'm very unhappy. I have expressed this and he just tells me to wait.

I hate waiting though. I'm an impatient little bitch that wants everything now.

I don't know if I'm actually loyal or not because I'm unhappy with him.

I have thought of leaving him but then I was like hell no there are far much worse things out there. Plus I really don't want to have to start over. Also I'm in love with my Master and I don't really want to leave him anyway. Its just a culture thing where Koreans are super obsessed about school.

My main worry is that will my Master pay me any attention when he is finished with his degree?

I fear the unknown. I know I need faith. I do have Faith. 100lbs of Faith.

My dog Faith

So here I am back to the question if I'm actually loyal or not.

BDSM has taught me that that I can say no and that my no matters

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Long story short but my father would beat me anytime I told him no. I was taught that I could not say no to any man. Well after 20 some odd years and more; I went through actual hell because I was scared to death of ever telling a man no.

It wasn't until I learned about BDSM that I can and should say no. That my no matters. That I won't get beaten for saying no.

So if you ever have a question about if you can say no or not; the answer is yes you can and should say no if you want to. Also if you ever have to question yourself about saying no; then you are probably not in a good mental place or a safe relationship.