I probably shouldn't be writing this while I'm super tired but if I don't write it right now I will not be able to sleep.
I have the best Master ever.
You know the things that sound really cool in your head but in actual practice its a huge nope.
Well I enjoy forced bi (because pussy tastes awesome) but I'm just not a poly person. I have tried it twice and neither times worked out because of extra stress and I just didn't feel right at all. If I'm with more than one person; I become utterly confused. I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. Also I found out that in order for me not to be jealous or territorial; I have turn off my emotions (which is a horrible thing to do and it feels like hell). Nothing is worse than feeling nothing towards people you are supossed to love.
I recently told my Master that I'm into forced bi and that I have zero interest in women but I love eating pussy. Long story short; my Master was like you will be the lead slave and you train the other slave. After he said that I completely regretted what I said before. I got super cranky and was crying a ton (even surprised him by cursing a lot). I told him how it made me feel and he said that its fine all he needs to me (this is why communication is important kiddos).
I still generally feel horrible because of Grave's Disease; but my Master has made, and continues to make, my life feel less empty. I actually feel loved by more than just my dog.
I dun made myself cry again just from writing this.
Totes love;
The Macabre Brat
